Back To School

I cant believe its that time already, time has moved faster than fast and I wonder if I have achieved anything at all.

Next Wednesday I will walk to the bus to see Bip and Bop off to school.

When I gave my job up at the beginning of summer to enter into therapeutic parenting I have great expectations of grandeur.

My minds eye saw two children who would have moved on in their life and would be handling situations so much better than they where before school ended.

I knew that nothing would happen over night, I knew that by the end of summer we would still have work to do, but I did think we would be further along than this.

I'm not even sure where I thought we would be.

As much as I'm happy to see school start I'm also ...... would be be correct to say scared out my mind ..... yes it would be correct to say that.

I can imagine chairs flying across classrooms, and the refusal to do work, the stealing and the temper tantrums.
I can see it like history repeating its self all over again.

I find myself planning how to keep my kids calm before they go of to school.. almost like treading on the egg shells of life.
Praying through out the day they are coping.... that I wont get a phone call from school telling me that one of them or both are raging and out of control.

Holding my breath as I opening their homework folders praying there is no letter home.... and then the fight over homework.

Having these feelings is no fun.....

Doubting the school system ....wondering if they will cope with my children.... and knowing that I don't feel equipped enough to home school...... and knowing I REALLY don't want to home school....

Maybe homeschooling would be better for them than the public school system, but would it better for me.
On saying all this and being so negative, Bip did go up 80% in Math this summer just by attending summer school, but its weather he can hold it together in school.
We where told to expect A's and B's on his next report card as thats what he is capable of .... but he still thinks every minute of the day is playtime.

Bop has gone backwards so it would seem, either that or the bed wetting again is in protest of going back to school, I'm not quite sure Ive not worked it out.

Either way there will be no putting Wednesday off ...... 


*Imagine found on the product blog

So When Did We Get Married?

So just before dinner my mother hands me and my hubby a present ....
On the front it says Happy Anniversary .... now me and my wonderful hubby just look at each other and smile

I say "Shall we open it today or wait til tomorrow"
He says " why would be wait till tomorrow"
"Because tomorrow is our wedding anniversary"
"Hunny" he smiles " It was yesterday"
I'm puzzled and I say "No Hunny its tomorrow"

The whole time my poor mother is standing there looking back and forth at us like we are a tennis match.
we in the meantime are still debateing weather its tomorrow or yesterday when finaly she says

"Hmmmmm sorry to interrupt but its today"

 Then the penny drops and I look at this wonderful man who three years ago today I committed my life to forever more and I smile

"Hunny" I say with my sweetest smile ever, can you here my sarcasm 
" If it was that it was yesterday ... how come you DIDN'T even say Happy Bloody Wedding  Anniversary to me yesterday morning when you kissed me good bye"

He in return says nothing and handed me a Vodka and Coke.


This is a Flog Yo Blog post on Thursday from the house where no one seems to know when they got married

Weekly Photo Prompt

 Its that time again...... yes thats right the weekly photo prompt

like I said last week I now post my prompt on my other blog 

LIMELITE

so please feel free to hop over the theme this week was

what summer means to me 

Bip was the perfect super model this week .... I think I may have bored him a bit cause I couldn't quiet get it how I wanted but bless my boy he stuck with me and finally we did it...he is such a trooper.

Also I hope you hop over to Kristi and Melissa's post to see their work.

 

 

 

 

 

Remind Me Next Time

Not to eat the Hubby's Chili con carne  again.

I can eat most things, I don't have a problem with eating a hot Biryani I pretty much grew up eating Indian food.

Peppers don't normally have an effect one me, but last night I believed at one point that I was going to faint after eating this Chilli.

This Chilli was a killer to me, you should of seen my face on the first mouth full, it must of been a picture cause my hubby even asked if I was ok.

I did finish it but after I had to go to bed..... it was 7pm ish

Today, this morning I still feel like Ive been kicked by a mule.

Everyone else enjoyed it even Bip and Bop wolfed it down.

All I can think is I must be getting old.

This is a Tuesday Train Post

Spill The Beans Saturday : Incuding .. A really good movie

You know being a SAHM isn't all its cracked up to be ... by Saturday I'm so full to the brim that I need to let it all out.
There is a saying .... Spill the Beans ..... The English idiom “spill the  beans” means “to divulge a secret.”
Oh boy do I have some beans to spill ....
In the world of Select All + Delete the beans can be anything from something I found to something that's happened .... Good or Bad
So Saturday is Spill the Beans :Saturday ......
And here are my beans for the week:

Sunday:
I love finding sites that are interactive ..... and I don't fully remember where or how I found this one..... but its sure worth a share ... especially for all of you who have little girls in the family.

Fashion Playtes

Monday:
 Day at home...... only because we are a one car family at the moment and I wanted to sleep in instead of getting up at stupid O'clock to take hubby to work.

Taking him to work has been a really special time for us both, its a time to reflect and pray together, but there comes a time when a girl needs to sleep more.... this was one of those times.

Tuesday:
RAD turned up big time.... I haven't wrote much lately about RAD and the kids...... its hasn't been quite on the RAD front I have just not wanted to write about it, but this day I went to pick hubby up from work and left the kids with my mom and dad.... and up and till now they had been fairly well behaved.... but when you arrive home and your mother already had a drink in her hand and tells you ....

"You will need drink before I tell you what they have been up to"

You know its going to be bad
Ye it was bad......here is just a brief run down of what we walked back into
TV remote took nearly all night to find.... Rabbit had been scared out of his fur..... dog was hiding behind the sofa shaking ..... and my parents where left wondering which whirlwind had entered the house.

Wednesday:
I love finding new sites and blogs.....
I also love paper products ...... cards, bags, wrapping paper ... if its made from paper I'm going to love it ...its a guarantee.
These cards had me whooshing and whooping as another love of mine is Birdcages the vintage type.

 

Fine Day Press is worth a visit

Also worth a visit is a site called Happiness is......

A  design  inspiration blog.

Thursday:
Thought I'd share this with you.....
Some of you may like a signature on your blog but not sure how to make one ...well this is the easy way .... and wont give you a headache trying to figure it all out ....enjoy

Personal Signature Maker

Friday:
Letters To God.
An awesome tear gerking movie.....
We watched it as a family and even Bop sat still though out the whole movie... that's a shocker cause unless its animated she isn't interested.
Instead of writing you a review I found the trailer to the movie .....




So that's my beans for this week ....

Do you have any beans you would like to spill ?

Have a wonderful weekend folks .....

The Gift of Dyslexia

So last night I won an award .... cant you tell I'm over the moon with this.... and I had to tell you 7 things about myself.... No: 2 was that I am Dyslexic .... Maxabella ask a few questions in her comment about this.... so I decided that it deserved a post ......

I'm not sure when it was that I realized that all the letters where jumbled up and back to front upside down and just basically messed up ... but I do remember the struggles I had in school.

When I was attending school the kid who couldn't do the work was the stupid kid, the one with the big D hat on sitting in the corner, they didn't test for dyslexia, not even if the problems seemed really bad.

Words and numbers always caused me a problem I would get them back to front, in the wrong order and English and Math were the bain of my life.

I always knew I wasn't stupid or slow, I always knew the answer to the question, I just couldn't write it down.
School didn't know how to handle this.

My parents hired a private tutor at one point in my school life.

I think it was lack of resources where the school was concerned, weather that be money, or just a lack knowledge that they didn't recognize the problem, and I know I wasn't the only one, there where other kids that I went through school with that had the same problems as myself..... but yet no one helped us.

Sad really, but that's just the way it was.

I didn't pass many exams, and if I did pass any believe me it was by the skin of my teeth.
The exams I did do well in where Arty subjects ...such as Dance, Fine Art and so on.

So at 16 I had been excepted into a prestigious Dance School in London, the only problem was I had to do my first two years on a foundation course doing A'Levels.

This was a joke to be honest, if I couldn't pass my school exams how was I ever going to pass higher education examines  .......

It must of been noticed pretty early on that I had problems...I hadn't entered this school through academic ability .... So I bet I shocked them fairly early on with my lack of skills ......

But again no one did anything I passed my A'Levels again by the skin of my teeth, and being a clever little thing I had chosen Art subjects .....

So when did they realized that I had Dyslexia ..... around 21 .....

I finished dance school and went into the family business which was hairdressing ... It was while I was in hairdressing school that a teacher asked me if I had ever been tested for dyslexia ....

I remember asking whats that ......I didn't even really know what the word meant.

So at the grand age of 21 I was finally tested for Dyslexia .... amazing really and it still shocks me that it took till I was 21 to find out why I couldn't read,write or do math.

So how do I cope with this...

Maxabella asked the two following questions.
"How do you manage to write so well, for instance? And does it freak you out a little that online is ALL words and letters?"

Well to start with it is sheer determination that I do what I do.... as far as blogging is concerned....

I found out quiet early on that I have an almost photogenic memory where certain things are concerned.

Example .... I can memorize streets where I live so I can find my way round ...
I wont know what a road is called (mainly cause I cant read the name of the street) but I will be able to get there from sheer memory if Ive done it once.

So where my computer is concerned I taught myself how to spell words by memory from where my fingers go on the keys I type without looking most of the time, Word by word I have memorized how to spell most words.... you might notice that I don't really use big words.... Im very basic in how I explain something...
Well I think I am.

I might want to say a big word but if I have not taught myself how to spell it I wont write it....another thing is I have memorized how most words should look when spelt correctly.

I have three spell checkers.... one on blogger one on the computer (its a special dyslexic one) and my husband.

The Internet was never scary really yes its all words but I have to say I love a challenge ....... and it has been just that .....

I still spell things wrong...My husband said he learnt to spell typonese before he meet me face to face (MSN messenger has no spell check)

One the funny things is I taught myself to spell want incorrectly and still spell it the wrong way now.... 
I always type wnat .... Amen for spell checker

Don't ask me to write you a letter.... me, pen and paper = what does that say.
My hand writing is very neat but I have only memorized words on a keypad

I read better now than I have ever done in my life, and I'm now 43 .....
There was a time in my life where I just wouldn't pick a book up.... but again I have made myself learn.... from sheer memory ....

Numbers are worse then letters.... I can do basic Math


For some reason I cant memorize numbers ..... and if you phone number was to be 123456 I would end up writing 342561 or something like that.....
I will hear the number but write it all in the wrong order.

So that's my crazy word with Dyslexia

You know .... you can do anything you want to do...if you really want it.

It is Flog Yo Blog Friday.... on Thursday ....

Join in have some fun and meet some new bloggy friends is basically the name of the game 

Oh My Goodness

So I won this today...
My very first bloggy award.... so a big shout out to Angie from Like She's Somebody ..... This lady has had me laughing so many times.... she had a wonderful sense of humor, well you have to with frizzy hair I guess.... Angie you know I love you .... and your frizzy hair ..... So Angie awarded me this .... and now I have to tell you 7 things about me or post an old post ..... I'm going to go with 7 things I think...... Don't want to bore your pants off again with another one of my posts.....
Oh and after Ive done that I have to award this award to some of you out there.... so hold a breaths ....

1: I have a Dog who drinks vodka and Coke and a Rabbit that wont eat lettuce
2: I'm Dyslexic (letters and numbers)
3: I'm scared stiff of anything that flies except butterflies
4: I never passed my driving test in The UK but manged to do it in The USA (Failed 3 times)
5: My favorite comedian is Peter Kay
6: I admire people who speak their mind...... even if I don't always agree with you I admire you for standing up for what you believe in
7: I'm sarcastic ..... and it gets me in trouble.
So with no further a do I would like to award this award to the following Blogs....
Drum Roll Please

Life and love in the country 

Maxabella Loves 

and 

Good Moms Are a Lot of Things

 * So I just noticed that part of this post is missing

The part that was missing said this 

To the three blogs I awarded you can do the 7 questions about yourself or do nothing ...... but please pass the award on to another blog or blogs that you think deserves this